Feeling:glum

I kinda hate memories.. Good memories make you die to wanna re-live them.. Bad ones make you sniff and cry.. Either way, remembering isn my cup of tea...

I had quite a lot of time to do reflections... Lotsa time, I realise I'm so careless with the things I do, hurting people or getting them into trouble without knowing, although purely without intention... Sometimes its my big mouth...

Well, I have various weaknesses.. Like in CS, my weakness is against an arctic-using opponent.. However, I have another weakness that makes me weaker than an average player who is afraid of actic-users: My big mouth.. Sigh.. I tend to tell the whole world I'm so weak against arctic that the whole world knows and starts to use arctic..

Why can't I stop wanting attention? Sometimes, I just want attention so badly I go and do stupid things just to get it.. And yet, I don't wanna look like i want attention..But I feel so... helpless and desperate... Wanting attention... So.... argh.. nvm..

Another 10 days to o lvls liao.. got to go study... byezzz...