feeling:sad...

Sad to think of the possibility of the YF falling apart one day... sad... Well, now I guess I have to step outta my shell, and start taking the more prominent positions in YF... I guess If I don't, I don't suppose anyone will...

I felt a strong burden and as I did my quiet time.. Currently, this series talks about men having to step up to take leadership of the church.. I see a lack in leaders in the church.. I feel a need for someone to step up to take up the leadership.. but I don't feel ready.. I feel like there's a great responsibility that both my peers and I have to take up.. but I don't feel ready for it.. neither do I see my peers stepping up to take it..

THis leads me to a very sad question.. once this current generation passes... who will step up? Who will defend the faith? who will lead the church and feed Christ's flock till He comes again?...?

Anyway, e-math paper tomorrow.. i'm fine tuning myself, aiming for perfection in that paper. I guess its the only way I can hope to secure an a1 in e-math..

Sighs.. through O lvls.. I feel myself being torn apart.. being strained beyond measure.. my spiritual health has felt that impact.. I now do my QT very rarely.. Sigh..

I guess you guys in sch won't understand what I'm talking about.. nevermind.. just bear with me.. thanks for being my involuntary listening ear.. I guess I feel a little better after pouring out half my heart here.. :)

Alone
Sad
discouraged
delirious