feeling: a lil' blue.. a lil' happy.. haxx..

Well, First things first.. I got into shooting... Well, Isaac was more pro than me.. He got into pistol AND rifle (Heck, he's the only guy who got into both!!) Well, We skipped mass dance. Nothing much...

In math, i guess I did regain a lil' bit of respect for Mr Owyong.. Well, I suppose at that time he didn't understand the situation enuf, and started nagging me.. perhaps his teaching method of asking students to present their argument on their method really did regain a lil bit of my respect for him. After all, he's one of the rare few teachers who teach math like Mrs Shelia Philip.. Well, speaking of her, I found a friend of priya, who has another friend who happens to be Mrs Philip's daughter.. whoa.. Well, I sent her my regards...

Anyway, that was that. Math, then econs, then GP. Mr Goon was as funny as ever. I drew a small lil' portrait of Mr Goon in my palm and sent to Leung Yu for fun.. haha... But after GP, I was totally jus bored.. At first i went to play badminton with Varuun and a few others.. After playing for awhile, i began to feel the heat (cuz its stuffy tehre, and lotsa ppl too... So I went down to eat.

Anway the exciting part comes during band... We got to play persis!! My dream come true.. But it wasn't as easy as I thought. I'm totally not up to scratch. The running notes on the last page, i totally jus faked them during the initial round. ok lar, i did still retain a small measure of integrity, but i missed quite a few of the accidentals. I guess I wasn't the strongest player there. I might know the vibrato. So what? I was totally way way way behind two of the others. behind wei long or whatever his name is. Behind that nanyang girl.. haven't quite got her name either....

Well, the piccoloist is starion.. wierd name (i've heard wierder, like garrison and goliath..) Well, can't blame his straight playing, since he's only got one year exp behind him... However, i'm not much better myself. At least he can play straight notes and run on them. I can't do the running properly in persis.. Haixxx...

Persis as played by JJ band is ok. Precise, altho slowing down at times. however, it lacks two main aspects, much to my disappointment... It lacks bass support, cross-listening, and finally, it just lacks that lil' bit of secret formula.. that clarity of parts, that lil' bit of feeling that adds the ultimate punch to the piece.. Lacks expression. Everything is so straight. So predictable. I hate that... Yes, they might have played everything right.. But they lack the most important thing-expression;feeling... I guess i don't have much more to complain about. I'm not up to scratch myself... vibrato or no vibrato...

I went home feeling rather blue.. okay.. was with Henry and co... I faked a smile.. I just.....kept my feelings out of reach.. but inside i was feeling terrible.. perhaps its because this is the first time i've ever been in a band where i'm not the best flautist around. Thinking back, in CCK, everything was going so well. I was improving so rapidly that there came a time when I even surpassed my seniors. (or so, I felt.)I never really did surpass Anneson. Anyway, Starion reminds me of Anneson... the lil' bit of gay-likeness......ok lar.. dun mean to insult him lar.. they are both perfectly male.. just that they would probably be the last to be 'lean mean fighting machines' should the need arise..

Well, I missed a lot back then. My development in the flute totally halted as soon as Mr Chew left CCK due to personal reasons.. He actually scheduled his friend to take over, but.....it didn't happen.....Well, during the time Mr Ong was around, my standard dipped sharply in the wake of not having all that technique exercises... It dipped even more during my 2-year stay at YCS band. My training and all was totally undone there. Good habits that were formed (like sitting with correct posture) were torn asunder there... by old, naggy, saggy, laggy mr tan....

Sighs.. But I can't sit here and self-pity... I feel I've got to prove myself... I've almost lost my passion for music in the past two years in YCS band... I guess I'm here to regain it.. I feel that I've got to prove myself... to prove myself capable of improving rapidly under right conditions. Prove myself a quick learner.. I don't know....

Anyway, The shooting practice conflicts with band... on fri... I don't wanna be guai lan and tell them that i dun wanna join....after all that difficulty.. after all that hitting the centre.. I really wanna go start on shooting now.. Perhaps my gun can be my best friend..

Anyway, I've cleaned up the rollerblade ball bearings. I just went for a run. Quite smooth.. Just that it was a lil' squeaky, cuz there wasn't any oil. I don't know where to get the oil, but i'll get the oil when I do. I need it badly. Well, if I could, I would get new beaerings altogether... those with removable shields... sealed shields may become dented after some time..

Sighs.. not in very much of a good mood. While something to celebrate would be my entrance to the shooting club (and isaac's too..)......but something to mourn would be my impaled mastery of the flute.. It's fallen so far short of that standard of perfection...I guess i'll end here...